Aumlaut held their first live performance last night. I wish i could begin to describe the emotion that i felt during playing. I just can't though. It was... in a word... incredible.

I've spent the past 24+ hours after the performance in a daze,

completely lost in my own little world, the sounds of the concert still rushing through my head

Through the haze i hear people talking to me, asking me questions, and I hear myself responding, but it's like i'm standing to my side - watching and listening to myself interact with the world

I wish I could share this feeling
words don't even attempt to begin to describe it
It's euphoria and sadness, all at once,
i'm simultaneously at my highest and lowest - but i'm not balanced

Last nights performance has me on a roller coaster
I haven't decided if it is because of the performance itself,
the rest of the evening afterwards (which is a haze to me)
or something else altogether...

I've come to realize that there are some things in my life
that I cannot be honest about in here, that I can't put in here
that i can't share,
that i won't share

i have my own outlet for those... my music
the emotions, feelings, and pains that I can't put words to,
i set out into the void through my music,
and through my words,
though like a charged sigil, they're not to be found...

i'm making little to no sense now... sleep is my one true friend

--S3